Musings on participation

[shadowscast]

I haven't posted in a while. Didn't seem to have anything worth sharing. Which isn't to say I do now, but I just posted some actual fic and I figure that gives me leeway. *g*

Oh, I do have happy news: I was nominated for the next round of the Fang Fetish Awards. Thanks, whoever nominated me! I shall now proudly post my button:


Also, I just read frimfram's Halloween story, Reality Ends at the Checkpoint. It is absolutely wonderful, and you should read it now if you haven't yet.

I haven't been reading much at all lately, neither fic nor flist—partly because I'm writing again (though I'm still agonizingly slow) and partly because life has seemed mysteriously busy, even though I'm still unemployed and have virtually no responsibilities. I mean, keeping the dishes washed is pretty much it, and even in that I'm slack.

I worry that if I'm not posting and I'm not responding to people's posts and not feedbacking people's stories, I pretty much cease to exist. I worry that everyone will forget me and move on. At the same time, I realize that's fairly silly—every time I've come back from a posting hiatus, my corner of fandom has swiftly welcomed me back.

Does anyone else have these thoughts?

By the way, speaking of my existence between posts: I actually do have a real-life journal, which is entirely friends-locked. I've started opening it up to fandom friends who are interested; if you'd like to know the mundane details of my life, drop me a line! (No worries if this doesn't interest you.)

Comments

[shapinglight]

I do get worried that if I don't read other people's fics (the thing for which I seem to have the least time) other people will stop reading mine. I haven't been away from LJ for long enough since I joined it to find out how soon people would forget me, though.

[shadowscast.livejournal.com]

I do get worried that if I don't read other people's fics (the thing for which I seem to have the least time) other people will stop reading mine.

See, I worry about that too! But it's a much easier question to answer as applies to someone else: I don't read your fics because you comment on mine, I read your fics because they're good and I like them. :) I sometimes discover new authors via their commenting in my LJ, but that's about the only relation.

[shapinglight]

I don't read your fics because you comment on mine, I read your fics because they're good and I like them.

Well, I feel the same about yours, obviously. I don't read Spander for anyone, as you know. Heh!

Quite often, though, I have things sort of bookmarked to read, which I know I will probably enjoy, and I just don't get round to it. I end up feeling very guilty then.

[shadowscast.livejournal.com]

Hey, I do that too!

Funny how it's so much easier to tell someone else there's no reason to feel guilty about it than to convince myself....

[shapinglight]

I do despair really of ever truly catching up.

[shadowscast.livejournal.com]

One of the things I've had to make peace with about Buffy fandom is that it's so huge, there actually is more good fic being written every day than I can read in a day. Therefore: you'll never catch up! (Well, unless the fandom stagnates. But let's not think about that!)

[shapinglight]

I try not to all the time. I'm not ready for it to end yet.

[(Anonymous)]

I meant, I don't read Spander for everyone. Sorry about that.

[ponders-life.livejournal.com]

Congratulations on the nomination!

[shadowscast.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

[ladycat777.livejournal.com]

*happily welcomes you back*

But yeah, I think we all have those kinds of thoughts. Fortunately, they've yet to be true :)

[shadowscast.livejournal.com]

But yeah, I think we all have those kinds of thoughts.

*whew!* Not just me, then! :)

[cindershadow.livejournal.com]

I would actually be interested in the mundane details of your life, though it seems rather snoopy to say so! (Especially since I don't tend to post the truly mundane details of mine . . . it kind of seems ungenerous to take and not share, but then I tend to run on and say little, so . . . )
So--if you'd like to add me, I'd love to listen in, but I won't be at all offended if you want to keep the circle to people you actually feel you know! I just enjoy learning more about the people behind my favorite stories, but that's as scary as my fannishness gets, don't worry.

[shadowscast.livejournal.com]

Okay, cool! Don't worry, it's not at all stalkery if I invite you. :)

Go [here] (http://www.livejournal.com/users/shadowscast/60310.html) to find out my secret identity. It's a locked post which, assuming I've managed the technical details correctly, should be visible to you now. (I'm being all mysterious and dark alley about this because I still reserve the right to not give my identity to anyone who scares me! Or who I suspect might be friends with my mother...)

[elisi]

Oh I'd love to read about your day-to-day life. Especially since I don't ship Spander and thus have to give your excellent fiction a miss... (not that I have time to read fic at the moment anyway!).

[shadowscast.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm curious what you like about me if you're not into Spander! But since you seem to pass the "probably doesn't know my mother" criterion for invitation into my real life, click [here] (http://www.livejournal.com/users/shadowscast/60310.html) (as I explained to cindershadow above).

[mpoetess.livejournal.com]

I should love to read about mundanities, and promise that I won't tell your mother the really juicy stuff I don't know your mother. ;-)

And yes, I have that 'everyone will forget meeee' feeling all the time - given how little I write these days, it's near-constant. It never really seems to be true, judging by the reaction when I do post something resembling fic, but it's still that way in my head.

[shadowscast.livejournal.com]

Okay, your security clearance has been upped. :)

Follow the link in my replies above to find the intro to my other journal. ::is too lazy to make the link again::

And yes, I have that 'everyone will forget meeee' feeling all the time

Hey, you run S/X and violence! How could anyone forget you?

Again, glad to know I'm not the only one with these insecurities. ::nods::

[iadorespike]

Trust me, you do not cease to exist.

I'd like to thank you for "friending" me today, that was a really nice surprise. I'd like to say that I really am interested in your RL journal. I have a genuine interest in the lives of the writers that I read, especially the one's that I'm in awe of...(yes, that includes you!) I'm really enjoying the opportunities afforded to me by LJ to do just that. Let me know what you think...

Anna

[shadowscast.livejournal.com]

I thank you for the sweet compliment! And I've friended you with my other journal; please click the link in my comment to cindershadow above, to read the post where I reveal my Clark Kent identity and explain a couple things about it. :)

[iadorespike]

Thank-you, very cool...found you right away.

Anna