How the Light Gets In (15/16)

I've finished another chapter—and now I know that there's only one more after this one. I might return to this 'verse later, but this particular tale is drawing to a close.

Standard intro:

This is part of my Fragments series. It's a sequel to "Late Night Porn Store Blues," which is in turn a prequel to "Human Frailty."

Rating: R for the language at the moment. There might be some sexual content later, depending on how Spike and Xander behave. (What, you think I'd tell you ahead of time?)

Warnings: Spoilers for all of BtVS and AtS. The whole series was originally just an excuse to indulge my hurt/comfort kink. Somehow a plot crept in too (funny how that happens!) but expect lots of hurt/comfort still to come. My Spike's kinda broken, and my Xander's got problems of his own.

( Previously in the Fragments 'verse )

Previous parts can be found here.

( Chapter 15 )

Trying to make a decision about JM in Toronto.

Dear Flist: I have to make a decision. Can you help?

So, James Marsters is going to appear in Toronto, August 26-28. I live in Montreal, but will most likely be visiting Halifax around the end of August. My Halifax-visiting dates are somewhat flexible, though, so ... I could go.

I have friends in Toronto, and in-laws in Oakville, so I'd have a place to stay. The tickets to the event themselves are a bit steep by my standards ($80 for the cheapest), and the travel would probably end up costing me around $150 (rough estimate).

So, what do you think? Would I feel silly later for spending so much money on a fleeting fangirl fancy? Would I regret it for the rest of my life if I didn't seize the opportunity?

I'm not even sure if I want to go. I mean, will I be horribly disappointed by the fact that JM isn't Spike? Isn't British, isn't a bleach blond, isn't a vampire? Will meeting the actual human actor mess with my kinky fantasies?

On the other hand...will it be the most awesome thing ever?

Okay, you have to help me figure this out. Hint: if any of you are actually going to be there, that would help with the figuring-out for sure.